April 21, 2010

A Brief Taste of Life After Atheism

It turns out that I was right to predict that my posting here might be a bit inconsistent for awhile (it was). Now I'm trying to get back on track at the same time I catch up with some work I had to postpone. This means that noticeable improvement might still be some time away. But there is one thing I wanted to share about my recent experience that I found quite surprising. In fact, I'm still not quite sure what to make of it. You see, I allowed myself to have something of a vacation from atheism...and I liked it.

No, I'm not about to devolve into any sort of absurd superstitious drivel. You don't have to worry about that even though some are apparently counting on magic to make it happen. I couldn't take a vacation from being an atheist any more than I could take one from being human.

What I did take a vacation from, unintentionally, was thinking about atheism. Has you asked me a couple weeks ago whether I could do such a thing, I probably would have said no. Had I tried to do it, I suspect that I would have failed. But it just sort of happened, and I enjoyed the experience.

I'll give some brief context. This is easily my busiest time of the year at work. I dread it every year, and it seems to get a bit worse each time around. Amidst this chaos, unexpected house guests descended upon me. I lost what little free time I had been able to carve out for myself.

This is what I mean when I say that my vacation from thinking about atheism was unintentional. Not only did I not think about it, but I didn't notice I wasn't thinking about it until now. I posted a few items I had in the queue but didn't have time to re-read them, to follow recent comments, check email, read my favorite blogs, or even open my RSS aggregator.

It was almost as if I had a brief taste of life after atheism where I did not think about it because I didn't need to. Yes, I know the reality of it is that I didn't think about much of anything because I didn't have time to do so. Still, this is the closest I've had in some time to a vacation from atheism.

What the heck does this mean? I haven't quite figured that out yet. I have only a vague sense that this realization doesn't bode well.

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